I'm Out

it really didn't take me much time to decide that i've had enough. yes it was only a week but who cares? enough is enough. i couldn't take the constant late afternoon headaches and nausea, and the dread that swallowed me every single waking day.


the general assembly of the college of law was a great opportunity for me to personally say goodbye to the college. it seemed like i was simply a spectator, listening to the speeches, witnessing the oath-taking of the officers from different year levels, hearing the plans the student council had for the current school year...it was kinda surreal just being there. i wasn't sad at all. i'll still get to see xu. there's the annual manresa days, xu days, etc... plenty of opportunities for me not to miss my college days. i think partly why i enrolled in law is because i wasn't ready to let go of college yet. i wasn't ready to give up my everyday rountine of home - school. but now, i guess i'm finally ready to take the plunge into the corporate world...earning may be tough too...but it sure beats law.


i learned a lot of things in the very short span of time i spent with the college. i learned that determination + love of job = success. i learned how to control my temper (thank goodness i won't be seeing that girl again). i learned how to discard my onion skin. and i learned that no matter how capable i am, if its really not for me, then i will never make it. i have to stop thinking of myself as a robot who can do practically everything. i'm still human...born to make mistakes, born to be imperfect.


pop ray said he noticed a glow in me since friday. well..i guess its back to the old justine again ei?... there is something out there for me. and law is definitely not one of them.